9th Sunday...Learning to Forgive!!!

Song of the week: Jordin Sparks – One Step at a time

Encouragement Verse: “He will yet fill your mouth with Laughter, and your lips with shouts of Joy.” – Job 8:21 NIV

Quote of the week: “With the death of every friend I love...a part of me has been buried...but their contibution to my being of happiness, strength and understanding remains to sustain me in an altered world.” --- Helen Keller


In spite of all the dramas of the week, another Sunday has come to overtake Saturday again…Ok, we are almost there, you can say, if you are reading this post on Sunday…over here it is just 5:45pm. Once more, I have been able to performance the task for the week elapse.

So I wrote in my last post, about old flames that keep cropping up at my time of vulnerability. I should just snub them but I really need to take care of it and finally put a dot at the end of that ancient history.

Well, enough of the old tales…

Anyways this past week I also updated my Goal/Aspiration list for 2008 (I kind of love the term, ‘Bucket list…living each day like it is your last’). As I re-examine it, I was thankful about how much I have accomplished so far. And even if I still haven’t found what I am looking for [“what am I really looking for?”) I can still give myself a pat on the back. So in anticipation to the New Year, I also decided to adjust the list with more ‘Bucket list’, hitting the ‘backslash’ key behind the year 2008 and keying in ‘2009’ at the end. And as this year begins to slip away one month after the other, I’ll definitely be including more goals or probably, I may decide to hit the ‘delete’ key as I go through the list.

Sometimes things may change and another time, it won’t change. Some people may change now while other times, they decide it isn’t necessary. But change is good. Some things may matter now while other times, those things won’t even matter. Whatever may be the case, I want to be able to look back then give Praise to God that He saw me through those difficult situation…helped me change ,my bad habits that estranged me from His love…and gave me the strength to endure the storm. God truly is rescuing me!

So this brand new week I would like to work on changing another flaw – UNFORGIVENESS. If it was a stranger who hurt you, then you could easily detach yourself from them or you may never see them again. But the real test definitely comes when they belong to the same lineage as you. ‘What do you do if they are your brother, sister or parent?’ It is easy to say, ‘I will forgive all’ when asked…but as the saying goes, ‘easier said than done’.

When we confront the reality of forgiving, we discover we have a double standards. I call myself a Christian…but many times I do find it difficult to truly forgiving. Instantly, I erect a wall between them and myself, becoming stingy with those three words that could lift the burden than I carry – I FORGIVE YOU. But God is still working on me and I will find the strength to triumph over this flaw. GOD I NEED HELP TODAY!!!’

8th Sunday...When the Past Came Knocking Again!!!

Song of the week: Asa – Bi'Banke

Encouragement Verse: “Forget the former things; do not dwell on the past. See, I am doing a new thing! Now it springs up; do you not perceive it? I am making a way in the desert and streams in the wasteland.” – Isaiah 43:18-19

Quote of the week: “It was a high counsel that I once heard given to a young person, “Always do what you are afraid to do.” --- Ralph Waldo Emerson


So it was Tuesday, when heard the door to my heart unlock…it was unlocked by a familiar friend who I never took the keys from. Again pursuit by another ‘Blast from my past’...”they sure picked the right time to come back, at my time of vulnerability”. But this time, it was definitely time to bring to a close that part of my past or I will never be able to start the ball rolling to the next phrase of my life. I truly needed closure…it will be hard but Lord, help me…!!!

As usual, he captivated me with those empty promises that sounded sweet but had a hidden agenda. The deep-rooted feelings all came back to me, muddling up my sane thinking…one part, wanted to cuddle those feelings again and go along with the familiar screenplay I was used to (Supporting Actress to the ‘Other woman’). Another cautioned me about my settling for less.

“Gosh! Why do I keep taking that same old road to nowhere?” Just then I heard Asa sing, Bi'Banke. that song smacked me back to the veracity of what was really going on. I had been a fool but I didn’t have to be again. I didn’t have to be that supporting actress that is never remembered when (by right) I had been given the ‘Lead role’ in the story of my life. No, I had to end this now or I will never know what it feels like to say, ‘NO!’ to him.

Just then the words that I feared to utter came out effortlessly. I may have ended a friendship but it was one that had outlasted its welcome…This time I disconnected the plugs.

As for him, I can only pray for him…’God, help him to truly find you and that he will be truly committed to the one he was made to love, Amen’. But as for me, it may hurt now but I am finding the strength to move on.

Am moving on…!!!

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7th Sunday...Finding My Way Back!!!

Song of the week: Nickelback – Savin' Me

Encouragement Verse: “The locusts have no King, yet go they forth all of them by bands.” – Proverbs 30:27

Quote of the week: “We can always find something to be Thankful for, no matter what may be the burden of our wants, or the special subject of our petitions.” --- Albert Barnes


Even when we begin to doubt our believes and God's promise but it is always brighter just above the dark clouds. All we have to do is never give up or everything we ever believed in will suddenly come to an END. What do I want? My heart knows...but what can I do now to be deserving of this beautiful gift of Love that God wants to share with me and the world???

I feel I am not ready, but He urges me on...and like the writer shared in the Meditation reading of October 8, 2008 (Word for today) "Don't quit your victory is assurred!"...I am pressing forward until I get every mission dished out to me right.

This Sunday I share with you one of my struggles...Anger!!! Sometimes, I fight the temptation to do something right everyday when I awake but it does not ever end up that way. But today I want to give it to God, asking for the strength to be able to overcome it little by little by His grace.

It may not happen instantly but I will surely be breaking ground...but I ask that as you read this, I ask that you pray for me...

“Letting go...but Letting GOD change my shortcomings each Sunday at a time..."

6th Sunday...To The One I Love (Closure)!!!

Song of the week: Michael Jackson – Speechless

Encouragement Verse: “See now that this has touched Your LIPS, your wickness is removed, your sin Purged.” – Isaiah 6: 6

Quote of the week: “Imagine every day to be the last of a life surrounded with hopes, cares, anger, and fear. The hours that come unexpectedly will be so much more the grateful.” – Horace


Dear RY ,

I have tried on many occasions to just go about my business but out the blue, my thought revisits the moments we spent together. What do I do???

I should be angry with you but I can't anymore because there was a reason for our encounter and now I know it is time for me to let go of what remains of you. You were part of my yesterday that will never be for my today...That love has died and now I mourn for it like I have mourned a loved one long gone.

But the manifestation of GOD's Love that lead you into my life still makes me speechless. I still wonder to myself, "How did it happen?", "What did I do to deserve such a beautiful angel that once creeped into my life?" I know it was definitely Faith that brought this Two Souls together and I am glad I encountered you.

I do not intend to be a Victim forever but I want to be Victor in this situation, likewise you. Although we have gone our seperate way, I think I will continue to hold you in the beautiful place of my heart.

I shall not harbor any bitterness towards you but will continue to pray that when we meet again that God would have blessed us both with all our heart's desire. Take care my former Love.

Love,

Kemi

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5th Sunday...Out Of My Busy Schedule!!!

Song of the week: Nichole Nordeman – Brave

Encouragement Verse: “Cleanse me with hyssop, and I will be clean; wash me, and I will be whiter than snow.” – Ecclesiates 3:1

Quote of the week: “Remember God's bounty in the year. String the pearls of His favor. Hide the dark parts, except so far as they are breaking out in light! Give this one day to thanks, to joy, to gratitude!” – Henry Ward Beecher

Draw Me a Jesus a Close to YOU...!!!

















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4th Sunday...Time For Change!!!

Song of the week: Ty Bello – Beautiful

Encouragement Verse: “For everything there is a season, and a time for every matter under Heaven.” – Ecclesiates 3:1

Quote of the week: “Remember God's bounty in the year. String the pearls of His favor. Hide the dark parts, except so far as they are breaking out in light! Give this one day to thanks, to joy, to gratitude!” – Henry Ward Beecher

Having Faith aHoping that it shall come to pass aChanging to fit in...(getting rid of the old wineskin)

It's only by God's grace ...that you go through some trials and stay calm. And just giving thanks to GOD while smiling J.

So it is my Fourth (4th) Sunday...and I am all about Change this week. God has began to change me and I can really feel it!!!

For me to be able to embrace what is coming, I'll need to embrace change and stop trying to muddle up the 'new wineskin' and 'old' together...

So Kemi..., it is:

a ...TIME for change...
a...TIMEto let go of the OLD wineskin ...
a...TIME to see the outcome of the Hope we wake up to everyday...
a...and it is TIME to see what is in store ...


"Lord, Change me...I Y You so much!!!

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3rd Sunday...Flying Without Wings

Song of the week: WestLife – Flying Without Wings

Encouragement Verse: “GOD, the one and only — I'll wait as long as he says. Everything I hope for comes from him, so why not? He's solid rock under my feet, breathing room for my soul, an impregnable castle: I'm set for life.” – Psalm 62: 5, 6

Quote of the week: “Unrest of spirit is a mark of life; one problem after another presents itself and in the solving of them we can find our greatest pleasure.” – Kal Menninger

GOD , this is a hard decision to make but I think by Your grace , I will live with whatever consequences that will come from this decision. GOD lead me to make the right decision.”

My Third (3rd)Sunday...I am learning to fly without wings...learning to have faith in this faithless heartof mine. Everyday, It is a struggle for me to awaken and believe that Hope is staring me at the face again...that something is coming...But I RISE!!!

My third week & forty-seven sundays more to go...So what can I say, I learnt from this past week???

I can say that I have learnt to relax in the face of TRIBULATIONS...because even if I try to do something about any given situation...I truly do not have any control over it. I can only just let go and let GOD!!! And even if I don't see the light at the end of the tunnel, I have to believe that it is there...

So this new week, I am going to Fly without wings in all that I will face...like what some people will say, "I am taking the bull by the horn." Some decisions I will make this week may bring about hurt and even pain...or maybe it may not...but I will take it and what I will be grateful about, is that I tried when I should have just given up...


I will take that LEAP!!!


May you all have a wonderful and fulfilled week...

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2nd Sunday...Letting Go!

Song of the week: Donnie McClurkin – Again

Encouragement Verse: “The Lord your GOD is with you, He is mighty to save. He will take delight in you, He will quiet you with His love, He will rejoice over you with singing.” – Zephaniah 3:17

Quote of the week: “You can develop in yourself the manners, tastes and habits that you most admire in others. The person you most like to meet is the type of person you ought to be.” --- Author Unknown


Indeed, I do need closure to this problem that keeps knocking hard at my door. I can’t keep trying to be the Redeemer in everyone’s live…Just when I decide to make a change, they come banging hard on my door. I do have a choice: (1) to let God do His job by helping me answer this stranger at the door or (2) to simply open the door and try to solve the problem.

Gosh! It is hard to ignore the continuous pounding on my door but I need to learn to ‘Let Go and Let GOD!!!’ ...and understand that I’ll not be able to please everyone in this world. I have to let people put together their own blocks sometimes that is, letting them make their own mistakes and learn from it before they grow because of what they learnt from it.

“GOD , this is a hard decision to make but I think by Your grace , I will live with whatever consequences that will come from this decision. GOD lead me to make the right decision.”

I’ll see you nextSunday...

First Sunday...My Genesis

Song of the week: Cece Winans – Alabaster box

Encouragement Verse: “Let us then approach the throne of grace with confidence, so that we may receive mercy.” – Hebrews 4:16 NIV

Quote of the week: “With the death of every friend I love…a part of me has been buried…but their contribution of my being of happiness, strength and understanding remains to sustain me in an altered world.” – Helen Keller


The new chapter of my life’s journey began with a message of hope…

”May the God of Hope
fill you with
all joy and peace…” – Romans 15:15

...Who would have thought that I would still be breathing after all the hurt and pain I have been through? But I am still here...and I have survived every blow to my fragile heart that could have knocked me out.

Just when I thought it was over, I was given a ray of HOPE to begin again. So I begin a journey of faith...I don’t know how it will turn out...what more if I will skid off this road and never make it to my new destination.

But what is for sure is that GOD will see me through because He walks with me. I know I will make mistakes as I go along but I’ll not stay down!!!

So why 50 Sundays, you may ask..I simply don’t know but I am following the voice from within. Where it leads me, I will go but I am praying for a safe journey!!!

“Lord, come and walk with me…”